Largest Full Moon of 2009

Happens to be on my birthday. How perfect is that?

Turning 34

These pictures has nothing to do with the post. Everyone just love the other pictures from Hawaii so I thought i'd share some more until my new camera comes in and I can bore everyone with pictures of my dogs. Yep, I bought me a new camera. Kind of a birthday present to myself. Oh yeah, tomorrow is my birthday. The big 3-4. And ya know, it either hasn't hit me yet, or it's not going to bother me. I didnt have a problem turning 33. 32 - yeah, that freaked me out. I was depressed for a week. I think that was the worst one so far. I don't think i'd have a problem though with getting older if I had accomplished alot of the things that I thought I would by now. Now I know there are no rules, no one saying 'you have to do this by this age or you're a failure', but honestly sometimes that's what I feel like. I always thought i'd be married and have a family by this age. I've been married (legally) once, for 7 years, and then was with V for 5 years so I consider that being married. But neither one lasted (obviously) and no kids, which since the relationship didnt last is probably a good thing. Now Ken and I are working on our relationship, and I think we're progressing, both have the same goals and ideals. I just... well, you know how it is when you're uterus starts hollering at you ...'hey, all the other women your age have already had at least 2! I'm beginning to go stale down here!'.... I swear I hear that dreaded clock ticking... and Ken and I have talked about it. We both want kids. We both just want so much for our relationship to be stable first. To NOT be that couple who in 10 years is staying together for the kids. We've had so many ups and downs that I know in my heart that this time is a one way street on the up path, but... I just want to be sure. So... wow this is going in a hundred directions. Sorry. For my birthday, as I said, I bought me a camera. I have an old one, that Bella ate the cord too, but I wanted something new to celebrate the new year of my life. A year hopefully filled with new experiences, friends, and lots of laughter. And a new camera to capture all of that.

Wordful(less) Wednesday #2

Sunset in Hawaii. Summer vacation 2006.

Is it really only tuesday?

Okay, this post might sound a bit like a ...well okay it probably is just a whine fest. I am just exhausted tho and I cant believe there's still 3 more days in the week!!

This weekend was spent cleaning out a rental. I honestly can't believe some of the things people leave behind when they move out. I've always tried to be super concious of what I leave, if anything, in an apartment/house. But this house was a total bachelor pad. Wrestling videos, comics, the whole nine yards. It took us about 6 hours to bag up everything. The topper was this evil snake in a bottle. And yes, it was a real snake. Carl said it was a cobra, but I didnt get a very good look at it. As soon as I realized it was a snake, my stomach rolled and my skin crawled. Totally grossed me out. Which of course the boys thought was hilarious, so Ken decided to sneak it up on my whenever my attention was drawn elsewhere, simply because he thought it was hilarious to hear me scream. I didnt find it that amusing. I did find it humorous when he was laughing so hard he choked on his coke and almost threw up. Would have served him right. The thing was just awful. I got the worst vibes from it. Definately evil.

Monday... crap, was that really just yesterday? I was swamped at work. Along with being the first of the month (rents due) and all the vacancies we're dealing with, there's also the year end getting ready for tax stuff to get out. And I ran out of checks. How does that happen? And then I ran out of stamps. Seriously? So I left around 2 and went and got my eyebrows waxed. I was beginning to look like a muppet and was in serious need of some pampering by this point.

And Darlene, my manicurist, being the wonderful darling that she is, had a free hour so she gave me a free pedicure. So many different yay's here. It had been 4 months since my last one (who has the time and it's winter so no one besides me and the inside of my socks see's my feet) and man oh man did my feet appriciate her generosity. I guess I was making faces cuz she asked me if it was hurting. Nope, I was just disgusted by what she was scraping off my heels. EEW. Never going that long without one again. But after that I had to go back to the office and finish up paperwork and didnt end up getting home until 7.

Today was almost as crazy. I had left my leather jacket at Darlene's so I had to go pick that up at 8, then rush to get my tuneup on my car at 8:30. But I had forgotten that it was trash day and the trash guys were two houses down the street and wouldn't let me drag my trash can to them. Wienie heads. So now my garage is gonna stink until friday morning. Lovely. But I digress. Picked up my jacket, dropped off my car and walked over to the Cannery Casino (right across the street) for breakfast while I waited. I went to their cafe. Yeah, won't be doing that again. It didnt taste bad, but it didnt taste good either. No taste come to think of it. But walking back across the street to pick up my car I had this guy pull up, roll down his window, and I swear he asked me if I wanted to go for a ride. Now, this is vegas. So probably 70% of the time when you see a younger woman (and sometimes not so younger woman) walking around or in front of a casino, she's probably a hooker. And by the look on this guy's face I had a feeling that's what he thought. Are you kidding me? I was wearing jeans, a black sweater, 3 inch heeled black boots and a black leather jacket. The only part of skin showing on me was my face and it was probably red from walking into the wind. Now maybe this is what hookers look like in Alaska or somewhere where it's cold but not here. So this just set me off. Here I am trying to make an effort to look nice, and some guy thinks i'm a hooker. I'm gonna go back to the sans makeup and just wear sweats.

The rest of today wasnt bad, just busy. Didnt feel like cooking dinner so we just had Panda Express for dinner. I really need to get my butt to the grocery store tomorrow though. Maybe, as long as tomorrow is really friday.

If I wasn't addicted before, I definately am now

AndreaLeigh over at My Chihuahua Bites has given me this lovely blog award. My second in a week! Yep, it's official. I am addicted to blogging. Where else can you spill your guts and win awards? Well, wait...doesn't Jerry Springer hand out awards?

So I am passing the lovely blog award to the follwing fellow bloggers.

Lenaloo

Seven Clown Circus

Julie at Wearing Mascara

Chris Bliss

Scentsy

I recieved a burner and two differed secntsy bars as a gift from a tenant who was moving out. I fell in love with this thing. It's a two part double burner type holder. You put the scented wax bars on top, turn it on and enjoy the aromas. No messy candles to knock over, no paranoid half way down the street oh my god did I remember to blow out all of the candles? It's perfect for someone as scatterbrained as me because i'm always leaving the house and forgetting to blow out a candle. And the wax smells so good when it's melting. The smell is subtle, yet fills up the whole house. I've been using the sugar one and have actually had people ask me if I just made cookies.



The only problem is that I have no way of contacting the lady who gave it to me and I don't know where to buy new wax bars. I checked out the website and they only sell through their reps. I have emailed them several times asking the local rep to contact, but so far havent heard anything.

Does anyone happen to know where I can get some more of these things?

New habits - not resolutions

Over chinese lunch today, my best friend Emily and I were discussing our goals for the new year. I had really decided to not set any resolutions, as I feel I should just keep taking baby steps towards my new life. But after listening to Emily talk about her goals, and her plans to acomplish them, to improve herself this year, inside and out, I felt inspired. So instead of resolutions, i'm going to set out 12 new habits that I want to establish for 2009. They say 30 days of repetition makes something a habit. So I figure one a month and i'll be doing good. So here it goes.

1. Study devotionals once a day
2. Exercise, in some form every day
3. Live on less than $50 a week (with the prices of gas going back up this might have to change)
4. Make an effort to look nice for work every day, (no more jeans, sweatshirt, pulling my hair back in a pony tail and no makeup)
5. Stop cursing
6. Watch the news everyday and pay attention/get caught up on wordly events
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These are in no order yet, and obviously I still have to come up with a few. For January i'm tackeling # 4. All I did with my hair was pull it back into a clip but I at least put on a nice sweater and makeup. Any one have any ideas of new habits they'd like to establish in their lives?