Friday, January 9, 2009

Turning 34

These pictures has nothing to do with the post. Everyone just love the other pictures from Hawaii so I thought i'd share some more until my new camera comes in and I can bore everyone with pictures of my dogs. Yep, I bought me a new camera. Kind of a birthday present to myself. Oh yeah, tomorrow is my birthday. The big 3-4. And ya know, it either hasn't hit me yet, or it's not going to bother me. I didnt have a problem turning 33. 32 - yeah, that freaked me out. I was depressed for a week. I think that was the worst one so far. I don't think i'd have a problem though with getting older if I had accomplished alot of the things that I thought I would by now. Now I know there are no rules, no one saying 'you have to do this by this age or you're a failure', but honestly sometimes that's what I feel like. I always thought i'd be married and have a family by this age. I've been married (legally) once, for 7 years, and then was with V for 5 years so I consider that being married. But neither one lasted (obviously) and no kids, which since the relationship didnt last is probably a good thing. Now Ken and I are working on our relationship, and I think we're progressing, both have the same goals and ideals. I just... well, you know how it is when you're uterus starts hollering at you ...'hey, all the other women your age have already had at least 2! I'm beginning to go stale down here!'.... I swear I hear that dreaded clock ticking... and Ken and I have talked about it. We both want kids. We both just want so much for our relationship to be stable first. To NOT be that couple who in 10 years is staying together for the kids. We've had so many ups and downs that I know in my heart that this time is a one way street on the up path, but... I just want to be sure. So... wow this is going in a hundred directions. Sorry. For my birthday, as I said, I bought me a camera. I have an old one, that Bella ate the cord too, but I wanted something new to celebrate the new year of my life. A year hopefully filled with new experiences, friends, and lots of laughter. And a new camera to capture all of that.


Mrs. Potts said...

Happy early 34th birthday! I'm a big lover of birthdays - I celebrated my 30th for 3 months, give or take a few. :)
I know how you feel about the time ticking & everything, but trust me, you're so young! I know women older than you who are just now having babies. You'll get there & be thankful that you waited until everything was "right".
Congrats on your new camera! I can't wait to see new pictures of your doggies!

AndreaLeigh said...

Happy early birthday! I hope you enjoy your day and your new camera. No advice or thoughts on what way you are feeling - I'm having a lot of the same feelings as I get ready for my upcoming birthday.

Lorie said...

Happy Birthday! I love birthdays! Do something really fun!

He And Me + 3 said...

Happy birthday, and I think you are very smart to wait on marriage & kids until you are for sure. I know too many people that stay in their marriage for the kids. Not good for anyone. Just saying I agree with you.
Enjoy your new camera and Happy Happy Birthday!